You feel the burn and you push anyway because it’s the best vein you have left and you just freaking need to get high
You know what time of day I hate?
It’s a leftover from the really rocky days with Tina…when we were at our worst. It’s like I lost all ability to tell time were it not for sunrises. Dare not ask me which day of the week it was.
Worst run I can remember, 17 days with what I could account for as 3 hour-or-so “crack naps”. I was beyond psychotic by that point but was aware that enough to tell folks you really do get a second wind at the 2 week mark! I remember being SO proud of that “research”.
My limit today..24 hours period ! It’s a very very rare exception I break that rule and now I force my body to rest even if sleep is evasive.
So back to dawn, that pesky peeking light, how’d we get there?
Inevitably there was the party that started the night before (or the night (s) before that) with some guy (s) met in the Internet, the getting ready, the waiting for the guy (s) to get there, the waiting on the supplies to arrive, the intros, warms ups, blast offs and then time is no longer something that is relative; it becomes a blur. It suspends.
That is until the sun starts to peek around the curtains or through the blinds or begins to bathe the ceiling above the windows in a soft light (if you are lucky enough to still be on your back at this point lol). It starts out grey blue, then to a pale blue, soft-soft yellow and then a full on glorious golden sunrise.
My eyes hurt.
It’s a buzz kill a, reality check; the world suddenly and rushingly impeding on my happy place. The light calls for a start to an end, a slowing down and closing shop or a get up and get going depending on your schedule. Either way in the distance I can hear Rosemary Clooney singing “The Party’s Over”.
“Over? I think to myself, “we are just getting going, right?”
Some day I’ll have to tell you about the dark, why I’m more comfortable there, why I love it but that’s indeed a whole ‘nother blog isn’t it?
At least I know that, for today, my eyes will be closed in slumber when that light starts to creep in this morning. The partying is taking a little holiday and I am resting mind, body and soul.
I wonder what Rosemary would sing for that?
Sorry ladies this is one for the boys tonight.
I just loved asking the question of a gay tweaker:
So how many hook up websites do you belong to and which ones work best for you?
If you want to bring a conversation to a grinding halt just asked that question!
The answer is inevitably “ONE”
<laughter, rolling about floor, unable to breathe >
“Yeah, right Sister”
To date I’ve NEVER met a tweaker who gave an honest answer to this question…one my fairy ass. Just tonight alone I saw him check three accounts on his cellphone.
In fact, on average, my experience has been when you bust the liar’s chops it turns into more like SIX sites per gay tweaker.
So what does the truth look like?
Well it’s a lot like my playlist actually…here’s a run down:
breedingzone, and what gay Tweaker leaves off Craigslist ???
This AFTER I got rid of
Add to that chat and video sites:
NKP’s, Grandslammerz and breedzones’s Video amd Chat Rooms
Dont get me started on KIK or Chatterbate.
And God Help me, I still miss ICU2!
Most sites either turn a blind eye to drug use or openly endorse it by allowing your profile to publicly state that you do drugs and in what frequency. All completely deny it like the corporate robots they are.
So there you go boys…that’s a run down of where to shop for boys when you fly.
And I am JUST scratching the surface here, I kid u NOT!
But he warned …shopping for dick is NOT for the faint of heart !
It’s exhausting, it takes hours, battery power, an ability to multi task and keep up with multiple sites, ability to efficiently screen candidates, and a built in bullshit and freak sensor plus a will of iron.
No wonder we take drugs!
Find 2 hook up sites that work best/produce the best results for your geographical area and sexual / party preferences and call it a day.
Your neck vein becomes a viable option
You are the ONLY one left at the party or there IS no party and you keep using ANYWAY.