I knew I’d hit a bump but not quite so soon

Did well today, kept my shit together, kept busy, got a lot of projects done

And them WHAM my emotional roller coaster took off about 7

7:09 I’m banging this shit again looking for emotional relief

Shit

Ok so I hit a bump

There’s always tomorrow

I did do ONE thing right

I backed the dose way down

And maybe that’s my path off

A little at a time

I don’t necessarily care HOW I get there

As long as I GET there

My body needs the rest

My psyche needs the rest

Not forever, but for a while

really alone …

“People think being alone makes you lonely, but I don’t think that’s true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.”   Kim Culbertson (via quotemadness)

It’s 3 AM

And suddenly you look across the room

And you think to yourself

Or sometimes say out loud

“Who the fuck ARE these people?”

“And why are they in my house ?”

And you’re as alone as you’ve ever been

Strangers surround you

Some you remember, some you don’t, all you want to forget

Even through the noise

The silence in your head is deafening

That’s real loneliness

That’s real fucking loneliness

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