i won’T miss…


1. Searching for a viable vein for hours
2. My veins hurting
3. Having to wear long sleeve shirts in the summer
4. Not being able to breathe in fresh air
5. Having to take intensive Tweaker Baths every day to restore my skin
6. Skin so dry even the Mojave Desert looks moist
7. A substance taking up every waking moment of the day
8. Lack of sleep / exhaustion
9. Meth Mouth / Dry Mouth
10. Being locked away in my apartment for days / months on end
11. My dog not getting adequate attention (the single hardest thing for me to face)
12. The feeling of being stuck repeatedly
13. A stiff body
14. Searching for 12 hours straight for the perfect porn clip
15. Having my days and my nights reversed
16. Not feeling normal unless I’ve just banged
17. People that don’t party responsibly and with integrity
18. Connections constantly dropping by my house
19. All the lies to cover up my using
20. Draining my back account to put shit up my arm

now whaT?

Tina took up all my time. NOW what am I gonna freaking do?

nighT crawlers

3 AM

When the shit gets real

When we reveal

What’s the deal

And how we really feel

iT’s my worsT Tweak!

Yah that works until I’m spun out

Then I just HAVE tell everybody all about my business…who I slept with, who NOT to sleep with, what I paid for it, how big I’ve ever gone etc…

It’s actually worse than an alcoholic who “Drinks and Dials” because it’s rapid fire, non stop, high energy and I’m gonna have talked about SO much by morning that I won’t possibly remember it all

Ummm…the G didn’t help, either

Why couldn’t mine have been looking thru blinds like a normal tweaker ?

you know you’re an addicT when…

No matter how much you bang or how much you smoke you still can’t get high

No matter what

you know you are an addicT when …

You don’t WANT more drugs in your body

and you’re STILL at the party

and you HATE the people

and you HURT all over

and you do MORE anyway

Know when to STOP


gay hook up siTes…

Sorry ladies this is one for the boys tonight.

I just loved asking the question of a gay tweaker:

So how many hook up websites do you belong to and which ones work best for you?

If you want to bring a conversation to a grinding halt just asked that question!

The answer is inevitably “ONE”

<laughter, rolling about floor, unable to breathe >

“Yeah, right Sister”

To date I’ve NEVER met a tweaker who gave an honest answer to this question…one my fairy ass. Just tonight alone I saw him check three accounts on his cellphone.

In fact, on average, my experience has been when you bust the liar’s chops it turns into more like SIX sites per gay tweaker.

So what does the truth look like?

Well it’s a lot like my playlist actually…here’s a run down:






breedingzone, and what gay Tweaker leaves off Craigslist ???

This AFTER I got rid of








Add to that chat and video sites:




NKP’s, Grandslammerz and breedzones’s Video amd Chat Rooms

Dont get me started on KIK or Chatterbate.

And God Help me, I still miss ICU2!

Most sites either turn a blind eye to drug use or openly endorse it by allowing your profile to publicly state that you do drugs and in what frequency. All completely deny it like the corporate robots they are.

So there you go boys…that’s a run down of where to shop for boys when you fly.

And I am JUST scratching the surface here, I kid u NOT!

But he warned …shopping for dick is NOT for the faint of heart !

It’s exhausting, it takes hours, battery power, an ability to multi task and keep up with multiple sites, ability to efficiently screen candidates, and a built in bullshit and freak sensor plus a will of iron.

No wonder we take drugs!


Find 2 hook up sites that work best/produce the best results for your geographical area and sexual / party preferences and call it a day.

Nuff said.