plan a

Plan A, MY Plan, cold turkey, didn’t work


Going into Day Four I was in a free fall and a complete sketched out mess

Something had to give

Too much, too soon, too fast

Plan B, NEW Plan, ease myself off

I’m not thrilled with it but perhaps it’s more realistic for MY body

I’m at half my regular intake

If I’ve calculated correctly I’ll be off in a week, gently

I’m still pissed MY way didn’t work

A friend suggested Plan A was not in my best interest

But did I listen ????

Oh well, no

But his Plan B didn’t quite fit either

After 24 hours of soul searching and writing I came up with a compromise; one I think we can both live with

I hope any way

The goals still the same…Stop and Take a Break ..absolutely NOTHING has changed there

Only how I’m getting there


Hang with me and keep chatting / emailing and posting

You’re keeping my eye on the prize !

THANK YOU for that !

oops, i meTh up

I went out to a cool 52 degrees this morning

On my way thru the mid rise I live in I noticed they have already decorated for fall

I guess I really did meth up my summer

<<<<<<feeling angry 😡 and disappointed 😔 >>>>>>

geTTing off righT – manual on safely injecTing

I post this from time to time because it’s one of the best resources going for IV Drug Users and because I firmly believe in the principles of Harm Reduction

Nothing like this existed when I first started using

This information would have saved me countless days of heartache and would have also saved my veins

Please share with any friend who uses IV Drugs

It could save a life

Getting Off Right- Safely Injecting Manual – Harm Reduction

now whaT?

Tina took up all my time. NOW what am I gonna freaking do?

ouch, ThaT hurt

I knew I’d hit a bump but not quite so soon

Did well today, kept my shit together, kept busy, got a lot of projects done

And them WHAM my emotional roller coaster took off about 7

7:09 I’m banging this shit again looking for emotional relief


Ok so I hit a bump

There’s always tomorrow

I did do ONE thing right

I backed the dose way down

And maybe that’s my path off

A little at a time

I don’t necessarily care HOW I get there

As long as I GET there

My body needs the rest

My psyche needs the rest

Not forever, but for a while

really alone …

“People think being alone makes you lonely, but I don’t think that’s true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.”   Kim Culbertson (via quotemadness)

It’s 3 AM

And suddenly you look across the room

And you think to yourself

Or sometimes say out loud

“Who the fuck ARE these people?”

“And why are they in my house ?”

And you’re as alone as you’ve ever been

Strangers surround you

Some you remember, some you don’t, all you want to forget

Even through the noise

The silence in your head is deafening

That’s real loneliness

That’s real fucking loneliness

and, again, and…

Once again

I stand at the crossroads

Between two worlds

Both equally alluring

This place familiar to me

No surprises

No easy answers

But it’s the place from which I rise

Just when you least expect it

I rise again